breasts

When I am sick I break out in a blotchy red rash on my neck. I don't think it has anything to do with any one particular illness, I get it for all sorts. I can tell when I am not feeling well and haven't really noticed the symptoms yet by this red patchiness all over the front of me that soon things will be worse than they are now. These are the days that I wear my hair down.

Today my hair was down. I have come down with mastitis again. Last night I had a fever of 100.8 (tonight 101) and today by 3:30 I had a very strong desire to lay on the floor in my cube. I left by 4 feeling like I was floating above myself as I drove home in the beginning of rush our. I kept thinking, this is a good example why the medical world tells people not to operate machinery while taking medication. I tried to take some medicine I had left over from the last time this happened but it didn't seem to be doing the "repair" to my right boob that it should have. I looked up the symptoms online of untreated mastitis and scared myself into calling the doctor for a new prescription. I do not want to experience a surgical drainage.

Last night I took to bed about 8pm as I thought just getting lots of rest would do the trick. When I woke up this morning my house was covered in food. Again, I can not imagine Helio allowing food to sprinkle his living room floor in his Mexican bachelor pad. But because I am out of commission but still in the house he allows Levi to eat wherever he wants. I had to put the food away before I left for work this morning. That was- spaghetti and noodles on the stove, plates full of food on the table, dumped over cereal on the floor beside the bed, not to mention the pile of dirty dishes.I texted Helio on the way home and asked him to pick up dinner. When he got home he totally played that man trick- what do you mean, I thought your message said you were picking up dinner. He is a liar. He knows exactly what that text said.

So, I was fevering in bed, needed to pick up a perscription and find a way to mashed potatoes as I had been craving them most of the day and I certainly was not going to ask him to do my bidding. I was going to show him how dumb he was by going myself. (the message was not received)I left to pick these things up angry. I just think he should offer to do things like this when I don't feel well. Honestly, I don't want to be sick, I don't bring it on and mastitis just sort of comes at you from nowhere. (well it does for me) I went to Walgreens and sadly KFC but not in that order. I was dripping in sweat in my red fuzzy socks with the rubber bumpers on the bottom and my good ol Esko Football sweatshirt. I kept up my anger towards him while I was gone thinking, didn't he say in sickness and in health?...So by the time I got to the pull up window at Walgreens and the lady told me that the fax still hadn't come through and it was "still on the way" I felt violent.

I am home now from a return trip to Walgreens. I have another batch of antibiotics. Helio is smartly staying in the other room and has changed his tone. I will take more medicine and sleep some in hopes that tomorrow brings back good health. I have about 8 more months of this breatfeeding and he's done. I will try to be a better mom and not count the days, just the weeks.