I do not fear single parenting

The danger with having been a single parent for nearly a year and a half is I am just not afraid to ever have to do that. At times, I feel sort of nostalgic for the days of no male influence in the house- just me and Levi. All weekend I kept thinking- wouldn't it be great to just sell everything and take Dante and Levi to France or Italy to live. Then I dreamt up a whole new life- I would take as many suitcases as the airlines would allow, rent an apartment in Italy, work in an amazing design firm, and find my happy place. Think of the food, the wine, the smells and the tiny little streets I would fall in love with. Really, how is it that we are supposed to get married and surrender forever to the life you settle into? I keep thinking, I want to fall in love over again. I could fall in love with a city. Perhaps really I am seeking passionate experience, whether that be food, a cityscape, or my relationship with Helio. He can be convinced, I am sure, to make a turn around. I just don't think its my place to do it. Its somewhere in there, he had it once.